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OldBaldy1701E

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16. "...and it's something that you were not meant to be made cognizant of."

Fri Jul 3, 2026, 09:03 AM

Jul 3

Then, there is a problem, because that is the one thing I desperately need right now.

These days, I don't see any reason to 'pull through'. That is the problem. I have nothing left to give. I had my shot (pitiful as it was, I guess) and I failed. I don't see any reason to keep on failing and making other lives more troublesome because of my presence. I don't see that anything I have ever done has meant anything. Certainly the things that I find very important in my life as well as other lives don't seem to have any value to anyone else. Sure, things pass. But they just pass into more bad things when I am around.

How many times does one have to crash into a wall before they realize they need to stop trying to drive the vehicle?

And money isn't going to be the thing that makes you alright. A better car isn't the thing that is going to make you alright

Well, I agree, but then again I did not create the society where having money and a better car does make things alright. Unfortunately, that is the society that we live in. You are correct in saying that I am the one that has to make me alright. But, I don't feel any desire in that way. I don't see any reason to. That is why I say what I say at the top. I need some proof that my existence did something... anything... worthwhile. Not in the 'fame and fortune' sense, but in the 'made the world a better place' sense.

Yes, it is a beautiful world. I just don't see anything that I have done has added to said beauty. I was certainly trying to. Hell, as a performer, that is pretty much what we are called to do. But, I failed.

And, that fact has destroyed my soul.

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I am sorry, but I have created another GoFundMe to try and help with my current situation. [View all] OldBaldy1701E Jul 1 OP

kick, and I hope you can get the help you need. niyad Jul 1 #1

Thank you. (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Jul 2 #7

C'mon over here, OldBaldy... LuckyCharms Jul 1 #2

Well, I don't have much time left, so if there is a reason, it had better become apparent real soon. OldBaldy1701E Jul 2 #6

There have been countless times in my life... LuckyCharms Jul 2 #9

"...and it's something that you were not meant to be made cognizant of." OldBaldy1701E Jul 3 #16

I'm trying to understand your situation a bit better so I could perhaps offer better advice. LuckyCharms Jul 3 #22

I will help but will his be enough? question everything Jul 1 #3

All the resources have said 'Sorry!'. OldBaldy1701E Jul 2 #5

United Way has some help available for paying bills: dflprincess Jul 1 #4

Unless they can pay for it all, there is nothing to ask about. OldBaldy1701E Jul 2 #8

" work with me on bills" means they will accept payments questionseverything Jul 3 #27

You should be able to qualify for MNSure iemanja Monday #41

I do not qualify. My husband makes over their line by $200 bucks, so I get nothing. OldBaldy1701E Monday #42

Donated and wishing the best for you. tanyev Jul 2 #10

Thank you so much. (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Jul 3 #17

Bump irisblue Jul 2 #11

Thank you. (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Jul 3 #18

Kicking 🦵 questionseverything Jul 2 #12

This message was self-deleted by its author Ilikepurple Jul 3 #13

Thank you very much. (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Jul 3 #19

Donated and hope things look up for both of you going forward. Ilikepurple Jul 3 #14

Thanks, and I like purple as well. OldBaldy1701E Jul 3 #20

Thank you! Seems we are half way there! question everything Jul 3 #28

I concur with Lucky..i will do what i can Figarosmom Jul 3 #15

It is appreciated. (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Jul 3 #21

kick for the Fourth question everything Jul 3 #23

I donated and I hope it will help! CaliforniaPeggy Jul 3 #24

Thank you! OldBaldy1701E Jul 4 #30

You're very welcome, my dear OldBaldy1701E! CaliforniaPeggy Jul 4 #33

Don't feel bad. When I had a heart attack luckily my family chipped in. I'm just going to pay it forward for you. Jacson6 Jul 3 #25

It is appreciated! (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Jul 4 #31

Stay strong, my friend UpInArms Jul 3 #26

Thank you! (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Jul 4 #32

Another kick question everything Jul 4 #29

Kick. We can do this question everything Jul 5 #34

Gods, I feel like I should give a salary to QE for all the work they are doing on my behalf. OldBaldy1701E Jul 5 #35

I posted on the Persoal Finance Group question everything Jul 5 #36

Once there are 50 replies, it pops up on the latest scroll questionseverything Jul 6 #37

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And another kick question everything Jul 7 #39

Kick JMCKUSICK Jul 8 #40