Not doing well right now.

[Bozvotros]

7. I care and I'm sure many others here do too.

I know something about being stuck with a sickness that won't heal, although it's hard to imagine the horror of seeing your foot bleeding and falling apart after four months. I found myself in the invalid role multiple times in the last 6 years and it was very challenging not to mention depressing as hell at times. Most of my life I had been stubbornly sometimes stupidly independent. Then sepsis and sudden kidney failure changed everything. I could not go back to work and I was not even safe to be alone. I had adult children who wanted to help but I didn't want to burden them. I went through a protracted painful divorce that ate up all of my savings. Doctors found more things wrong with me and I felt more out of control than ever in my life. I had more that a few "I'd be better off dead days." For every step towards getting better there seemed to be two more setting me back. I am not sure how I got through it. I know I had people who cared about me and that made things bearable and better. One day about 18 months ago I got word that I could get a transplant. I can't tell you how much better my life has been since. I am hoping for the best for you and that one day your dark days will be in the past. I remember at one time hyperbaric chamber treatments could be very helpful for wounds that are hard to heal. Maybe there is one near you. Best of luck and healing to you.