Not doing well right now.

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23. I hear you.

Suffering with severe chronic pain and/or debilitating illness showing no signs of remittance can be unbearable, particularly when you have very limited support or finances and you can see how your suffering is affecting others you love. I strongly believe in people having the right to die and the ability to decide when life becomes too painful, burdensome and/or hopeless to go on. I cannot decide that point for anyone other than myself. I also believe there are fates worse than death, such as lingering in a coma with very limited signs of brain function or being too demented and confused to recognize or connect with loved ones or participate meaningfully in your own care. I made these and other conditions clear in a very specific advance directive or living well. I sent it to both of my sons and discussed it with both of them. It includes a statement that in the event my state approves euthanasia and I am unconscious or unable to participate in treatment and my condition is very unlikely to improve, I wish to avail myself of that service. They nearly had to make the call to withhold care when I fell into a coma a year and a half ago. I'm glad I made it out. My transplant came 8 months later. I hope you can let your husband and anyone else important to you, know how you feel and what you want. I'm hoping for you to get some relief soon and sending healing thoughts your way.