Everything is piling up all at once and it's so depressing

[MIButterfly]

I don't even know where to start. My best friend is a lost cause. It turns out you can know somebody practically your whole life and not know them at all. I feel like I'm going through the five stages of grief. There's something wrong with my healthy cat who's lost four pounds and developed a heart murmur since last year so I'm worrying about both of them day and night. I had an infection in my tooth which I had fixed by an endodontist in April but neither Medicare nor my supplemental insurance covered any part if it because it's considered "restorative" or some damn thing so I'm on the hook for $2250.00. Then I have to worry about the damn Republicans cutting Social Security and Medicare and then what will I do? Hurry up and die? I'm not ready to go yet. My TV, phone and internet are out but my house is a mess and I have absolutely no energy to clean it so the repair guy can come. I got an appointment to talk to a counselor but it's a video appointment which I don't want but that's what my doctor put in for so I'm stuck with it. God forbid I have any kind of choice. Whenever I call a business or service place or even the doctor's office, I have to speak to the AI bot or whatever the fuck it is and answer 20 questions before I can get to a real person, who, outside of the doctor's office, has an accent so thick I have no idea what they're saying, stressing me out even further.

And don't get me started on DJT and the idiocy and outrageousness du jour. It's neverending, day after day after day.

It's all so overwhelming. It's life, but I'm not coping very well. I don't feel hopeless; I know eventually it'll pass (except for the frustration of calling anyone) but for right now, all I want to do is sit here and cry.

Thank you for allowing me to vent without fear of judgment. It really does help to get it all out.