My son committed suicide 1/27--he was 25 years old

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60. crimycarny

I am so deeply sorry for you and all his loved ones.

I'm going to tell you first......IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT. I understand you feel guilt but people don't kill themselves because you did something....he suffered from depression, likely battled with it for some time and it overwhelmed him. No doubt he had long considered suicide as an option to end his pain. It is well-known that the holiday season can be very hard on those who cannot feel true happiness.

I don't have kids and cannot even imagine your pain, but I do know the angst of a loved one's suicide. My dad shot himself in the head and lived for six days - the third day was my birthday. All I can tell you is the old adage "Time heals all wounds" is NOT true.....but certainly, only time can make it easier to bear.

PLEASE try to talk to a grief counselor, for your own sake for for your other kids. All you can do now is carry on. And remember someone is always here on DU, we care.