My son committed suicide 1/27--he was 25 years old

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88. So sorry

I lost two friends exactly a year apart. First one was an accident, I spoke to him the night he died, and I had a bad feeling due to who he was going to party with. Exactly a year later my friend's friend blew his brains out on the anniversary, he was full of guilt as he had reintroduced my friend to using. I was the last person to speak to him, I tried to pull him out of his funk, reminding him of his wife and kid and an upcoming concert in a effort to pull him out of it but I found out later it was unsuccessful.

You will go through the what ifs, as they are part of the denial stage. You're going to have to work through those stages and visit anger over it. Please take care, loosing a child is one of the worst things a person can deal with. Take comfort he had the courtesy to warn the first responders. Seek out a support group to help you with this, it is going to be a tough year.

I'm so sorry for your loss.