My husband died in 2017. I have the anger tamped down, but if I think about this or that, it comes right out. I try to stay busy and keep working on finding my way. It is not like your situation. I'm just made at the world.
Everyone deals with grief and loss in their own way, their own timeline. One of the memes I saw was about stages of grief. There are stages, but it isn't like climbing steps or crossing stepping stones. Sometimes we get stuck, sometimes we skip a stage, sometimes we are in more than one stage. All I can say is that time helps some of us.
You were right to think it over before you talked to lawyers. However it resolves, you looked for the truth of your wife's death. If you weren't doing this, it'd eat you up. Better to work it out. Glad you have people right there who care so much about you.
Have fun at the dog park 
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