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55. Not getting the Message

This is my last post because I have to restart my life.

I feel the Indian govt is not getting the message. There was a time last week when I was hopeful that this may just fizzle out. After yesterday and today I do not think complaints are optional.
A decent state would recognize the horrifying level of mining, extraction, malpractice, fraud, misconduct and harassment by complete strangers has occurred on this street between 2012 and the present.

This isn’t a phone or a computer. You cannot just barge in and install apps with lazy metaphoric leaps of logic.

I have not had any mental illness. I had a breakdown that was justified. It was worsened at a hospital where they asked questions so ridiculous and entirely seriously that I descended into learned helplessness.

One of them (this one rankled the most because it was so outrageously stupid and I really feel for people whose brains are embattled and this type of fucking idiot is who handles them): “Do you think you have superpowers?”

It showed a contemptuous and not very bright person’s understanding of what mental illness must be like. I was looking at this brainless woman and wondering, “seriously? This is how you think mental illness works. You are a fucking incompetent idiot who should never work in that area ever again.”

Had she asked “Do you think you may never work in science again and have to pack up and go home because you are completely unfit for science now you have provided this unbeautiful high def sample?” That would have been helpful. She could have said. “Look that’s ott and you can still work and function”. It would not have worked. But it would not have done more harm. The shrink they had me see was far superior.
I don’t have any mental illness, but I do understand what a healthy state and a warped state are now.
I want to put this behind me permanently complaint filing aside.

I am suspicious by now about any activity overtly that is outside my field. Might give the wrong ideas to crackpots. But I had a great grandmother who was schizophrenic. She had a disturbed audiovisual response.

That would make you feel nuts.
But to be an educated doctor at a high profile institution and so mediocre a fraud that - I have rarely seen doctors in physical health that clunky. So it means that this is a bottom of the class type who wants to make money and that’s who thrives at Stanford Psychiatry.
Good psychiatrists are not contemptuous. They listen. It is the damn human brain. And you have a checklist and what? Next pretend that it is all a game.

This is a problem. When you have people that incompetent in area like that and you just allow them to hack away. This is why I am filing allegations of psychiatric malpractice. And pointing out that this is at least unconscious malice. That it is bad for business to not be in bed with rapacious data mining. Good The Woebot shut down.

This can go one of two ways. The Indian govt cannot just maltreat me for 14 years and then gloss over it. Its like Domino’s Effect. There are unknown people who will be affected if this nuisance continues.


Otoh if this entire crowd is kept in quarantine for complaint filing by me and shutdown and warned. That won’t stop complaints. I am filing them any which way.
But it will ensure that from here on this will be smoother. I am not scary or stupid or

This screen between is a pain because you first notice threatening - scary or scary stupid avarice, overconfidence, inversion, theft.

I am filing complaints and as this atrocious thing has left one cancer patient dead and cost me 15 years almost by now, it should be shut off for traffic and allowed to return to its old sleepy town state.
If you continue this it will escalate.

What I hate doing is enduring a scary charlatan at the expense of costing someone decent. When I was KO, I would erupt in anger but be too beaten down at other times for much more than sullen brooding about creeps.
Before she died of cancer all my poor mother heard about was the creeps. The poor woman heard me rant about creeps non stop and then she left me. Those are not connected.
I cope with gallows humor.

Yesterday as I was looking at the creeps with loathing this girl who seemed nice smiled at me and I glowered. This has to stop. I am laughing at the creeps not with them.

But seriously these brainless hacks have to never again... The city is full of suckers and such.
I laugh that I may not weep. I have stuck with stupidity for so long I have given up.
Have pity on me and if you have any brains please stop this rapacious stupid crap and go annoy just about anyone else.
If I recover and am functional that’s better for society than forcing this obviously fraudulent, second rate, pseudoscientific garbage that is an embarrassment.

Tech is not science. I am writing a paper..I have done more with my KO brain than old super powers did ever and I bet she gets paid a tonne and ruins lots of people’s lives.
This has really drained me. Idiocracy to the hilt.

This society sucks. Ignoring climate scientists like Peter Kalmus, harassing Dr Fauci and feting an ass like Pinker. And Haidt. Whose wife makes menstrual art. A match made in Idiocracy.

I am terrified of stupid people. Please shut this down and I can give them the address of a very nice sexual harasser two hours away. They can all go there and star in a trauma porn meninist flick over there.
This won’t end well as is. Don’t keep doing this.

I am not an influencer or plant. I am actually the average scientist and I will entirely credible in the setting I am intended for.
Who doesn’t have some drivel about them?

But my job is the worst fit for all this. The highly competent or some sort of crowd I want a restraining order against are the only kinds of people in this. I am a third category. I don’t want next level rubbish tech.
This has to be aborted. I am entirely sure of that. It is not worth spinning out for another minute. It sucks away all my real resources.

Total charlatanry..
I don’t how to make it clearer that if you continue to use malpractice to justify encroachment and harassment, if the internet has rotted your brain to the point where you cannot tell a threat, kayfabe from a white collar professional who has seen enough and is telling you directly as scientists used to tell me when I was a greenhorn (as distinct from green) that this or that is bs.
This is bullshit. Don’t keep doing this.
This is not a religious place or a sweatshop. It is a quiet residential area and I will make sure to target complaints so only sleazy frauds at the top get blamed. People like Nadella, Pichai, Ambani or small creepy companies.
The point of being a ceo is the buck stops with you!
I have loyalty to my colleagues because they are not frauds (loyalty sounds corny but well what it connotes..sounds lame and histrionic..this was all embarrassing. It is those Si Valley creeps. They have money but they are embarrassing and nice try btw - hoping the biggest loser in science would fall for it. I can afford this bullshit less than people who can buffer such pointless drivel. When was the last time these guys had any product you could get people to use withour extortion? It is not whitehatting etc. It is just corruption, misogyny and parasitism but subtle.)


I cannot afford loss of another day. So if this is not entirely gone - it is not my problem figuring out how. But while I do know it will fail, this time I don’t want it to take me and what time and resources I have with it.

I don’t bother with tired left right scripts that work for corrupt types. What is new then?
I am not going to take this Malcolm Gladwell of tech type seriously ever.
Everything I hate - charlatanry, breaking things, flattering turds and hurting the feelings of nice people. All of that is professional or social behavior I despise,
It doesn’t matter if someone has no power and you can get away with hurting their feelings. Its still not nice, but with cameras on its all show and that destroys work and decency.
If you need to be monitored to work hard, not be a pervert yeah that is who should be super powers’ patient. Battle of giants..that’s at least some mutualist scam.

This really is destroying society and people. Zitron and Yasha have talked about it as has Coleman Spillde.
Let those of us in India or the US who are not awful people lead our lives sans internet at this scale and “inevitable” drivel and so on.
A control spot.
No hogging. They can have their hells. Aggressive…that’s the problem. And riling people up. It’s like you want misery to be empty but fake moral. It is bad faith.